Note to that voice in my head...

I'm not trying to win a race.  I don't have to be a certain weight by a certain date.

I am focusing on finding ways to incorporate health and fitness into my daily routine in a way that gets me to and maintains my body at a healthy for me weight.

I want to lose this weight SLOWLY as to reduce any health risks that I may have if I try to lose this too quickly.

I will allow myself to have time to defrag and allow my body to readjust itself during the week of my comma and give myself a break as I am emotionally in a different place than normal and I do have to take that
hormonal and chemical change into consideration.

Right now, during this in between time I know it's hard.  We are in a state of transition between the excitement of the first chunk of loss and meeting the next milestone - 50lbs loss.  I want to be at that milestone.  Recently even though that milestone is close, it seems so far away.  The journey to every milestone will test me, but I have what it takes in me to do it, make it all the way and maintain it.

On this journey demons will come out.  They have held me here for decades.  Letting it go, letting myself be free of their burden will allow me get to my healthy for me goal.  I have to go through this part, it is the only road that will take me to where I need to go.  I have to allow myself to take the time along the way to learn, test, to share, to discuss, to implement and save what I am learning to help me later in this journey.

I will not let the volumes of new information overwhelm me.  I will focus on, post and share the positive ones and leave the informative ones for personal further research and leave the panic ones for someone else.  It has to be a happy change, not one for fear. =)

You have to make a choice.. you can either be a friend to myself through this process helping me along to achieve my goals, or you can shut the fuck up, get in the back seat and let the plan drive by itself until your self confidence is back.  The plan knows where it is going, it knows the roads to success.  Although I would really appreciate it if you would CHOOSE to enjoy the trip, because it is an amazing journey, and if you lovingly learn the scenery along the way, and help me carry with us the knowledge of all of the tools that will get us to our healthy for me weight.

Well... we are done at this rest stop.  Make your decision are you co-pilot or are you baggage in the trunk?  Nope, if you aren't helping get there, then you can't sit in the back seat - that is reserved for people who are going to help us along the way.

Ok wise choice to call shotgun as my co-pilot.

Let's go..