I am in a very happy place!
I am upbeat. I am simply wowed at the possibilities I wouldn't have considered for my future just a short 9 weeks ago. I have become used to the "omg.. I am so dumb, why didn't I see that earlier.." feeling and now use it as a pavlov's dog response that I have to praise myself for overcomming yet another life challenge and praise myself for having an open mind and considering all possibilities - including that.. it is totally OK to be wrong sometimes. =)
Realize that to question is how we grow!
I lost 2 lbs this past week - but the scale just isn't a focus right now. I KNOW I will get to my goal - the only thing that is not within my control on this journey is time - and so I am really just waiting for it to happen like a child waits for their very important birthday to finally get here! Along the way I am enjoying my life journey in ways I never dreamed. I am feeling the REAL emotions that were under all of that baggage that I was carrying around. That chip on my shoulder because I thought I knew everything - is gone. My mind is open to all of the learning possibilities around me. I was trying to find the wording to say on Facebook "If you are heading out to do something exciting - please consider inviting me" without it sounding like a desperate plea for friends and instead that I am so eager to try new things I don't even know where to begin! =)
Do I get down? Do I have moments of doubt and frustration? TOTALLY! The change I made to my old behavior is that now I only allow myself to feel that way for 30 minutes (timer and everything), then I start working on finding a way out of it. One of the easiest places to find inspiration and motivation is YouTube. I watch YouTube videos of people who have had successful weight loss doing exactly what I am doing.
Today I was having one of those brief moments. I let something frustrate me that shouldn't be a priority for my emotions. So I went to YouTube to change my mood. I found this amazing video:
Those 5 things that she listed.. that is all there is to it. We always try to make diet plans complicated. Maybe it is because all of the fad diets out there are complicated. Books, and points, and food type restrictions, and all of this complexity.
Follow a healthy natural food plan
Commit to an evolving fitness plan you enjoy
Spend your energy retraining your brain to be a healthy you
It really is easy if you just take the time to really think about it. =)
Friday, May 28, 2010
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Creating a healthy lifestyle is like baking a cake
Let's say we want to make a cake.
In order to make a basic cake we need the following ingredients:
Butter or Oil
Sugar
Eggs
Flour
Baking Powder
Milk or Water
Time - to prep, bake and eat. =)
Each of these elements is critical to the success of our cake. They each play a huge role in the success, color, texture (mouthfeel) and taste of our cake.
But what if we left an ingredient out?
No Butter - rougher texture, the cake is flat and not airy.
No Sugar - lacks cake taste, no browning of the cake.
No Eggs - rougher texture, flat cake, ingredients don't bind together.
No Baking Powder - flat cake, not spongy
No Milk or Water - dry cake, ingredients don't have enough moisture to properly be mixed together
Leaving just ONE ingredient completely out is a recipe (LOL pun intended) for a disastrous cake.
Consider this..
Isn't a cake much like your weight loss and healthy lifestyle journey?
Here is the recipe for a standard journey:
PROPER BALANCED NUTRITION
CARDIO
STRENGTH TRAINING
DRINKING WATER
TRACKING FOOD
TRACKING FITNESS
CREATIVE AND OPEN MIND
SUPPORT
So if you decide that you don't need one of these, that you can have a successful journey without them, what happens to your recipe?
NONE OR POOR NUTRITION - body not fueled, unable to get through day or workouts, no energy, brain slow to respond. Increasing hunger due to poor nutrition leads to binging and "cheating" behaviors. Hungry, binging or cheating lead to mental challenges.
LITTLE TO NO CARDIO - no calorie burn, heart is not strengthened, lung capacity not increased, you don't feel good, you don't sleep well
LITTLE TO NO STRENGTH TRAINING - Metabolism isn't raised, fat doesn't burn as many calories as muscle, bones aren't strengthened, more prone to injuries, coordination and balance aren't tested and strengthened.
NOT ENOUGH WATER - You don't digest as well. Metabolism suffers. Water is SQUEEZED out of your waste product before elimination so you are hydrating on waste moisture - toxicity. Kidney stones. Lungs aren't lubricated. Joints aren't lubricated.
NOT TRACKING FOOD - Unable to regulate weight and plan for results. No historical data to show clear improvement in nutritional values. Unable to confirm schedule of meals and snacks evenly throughout the day. Unsure if you are getting the right amount nutrition critical areas to weight loss - calories, fat, carbs, protein, sodium, etc.
NOT TRACKING EXERCISE - Unable to regulate weight and plan for results. No data to show clear improvement in fitness abilities.
NOT HAVING A CREATIVE AND OPEN MIND - Unable to create solutions to overcome challenges, unable to see the issues right in front of you to combat and change them, unable to find ways of creating successes in your program. Unable to recognize, accept or apply support and tips that can help you be successful in your journey.
NO SUPPORT - Isolation, no exposure to other people succeeding at what you are doing, no place to get a head check, no accountability, depression, failure.
The recipe for your LIFE LONG health and fitness is a carefully balanced recipe complete with proven methods, chemical reactions, science, and so much more.
Unless you are a person who is at goal weight and have kept it off for 5 years while missing one key ingredient above, DON'T YOU OWE IT TO YOURSELF to follow the proven recipe so you can HAVE and ENJOY your cake, and eat it too?
(LOL pun intended there too!)
In order to make a basic cake we need the following ingredients:
Butter or Oil
Sugar
Eggs
Flour
Baking Powder
Milk or Water
Time - to prep, bake and eat. =)
Each of these elements is critical to the success of our cake. They each play a huge role in the success, color, texture (mouthfeel) and taste of our cake.
But what if we left an ingredient out?
No Butter - rougher texture, the cake is flat and not airy.
No Sugar - lacks cake taste, no browning of the cake.
No Eggs - rougher texture, flat cake, ingredients don't bind together.
No Baking Powder - flat cake, not spongy
No Milk or Water - dry cake, ingredients don't have enough moisture to properly be mixed together
Leaving just ONE ingredient completely out is a recipe (LOL pun intended) for a disastrous cake.
Consider this..
Isn't a cake much like your weight loss and healthy lifestyle journey?
Here is the recipe for a standard journey:
PROPER BALANCED NUTRITION
CARDIO
STRENGTH TRAINING
DRINKING WATER
TRACKING FOOD
TRACKING FITNESS
CREATIVE AND OPEN MIND
SUPPORT
So if you decide that you don't need one of these, that you can have a successful journey without them, what happens to your recipe?
NONE OR POOR NUTRITION - body not fueled, unable to get through day or workouts, no energy, brain slow to respond. Increasing hunger due to poor nutrition leads to binging and "cheating" behaviors. Hungry, binging or cheating lead to mental challenges.
LITTLE TO NO CARDIO - no calorie burn, heart is not strengthened, lung capacity not increased, you don't feel good, you don't sleep well
LITTLE TO NO STRENGTH TRAINING - Metabolism isn't raised, fat doesn't burn as many calories as muscle, bones aren't strengthened, more prone to injuries, coordination and balance aren't tested and strengthened.
NOT ENOUGH WATER - You don't digest as well. Metabolism suffers. Water is SQUEEZED out of your waste product before elimination so you are hydrating on waste moisture - toxicity. Kidney stones. Lungs aren't lubricated. Joints aren't lubricated.
NOT TRACKING FOOD - Unable to regulate weight and plan for results. No historical data to show clear improvement in nutritional values. Unable to confirm schedule of meals and snacks evenly throughout the day. Unsure if you are getting the right amount nutrition critical areas to weight loss - calories, fat, carbs, protein, sodium, etc.
NOT TRACKING EXERCISE - Unable to regulate weight and plan for results. No data to show clear improvement in fitness abilities.
NOT HAVING A CREATIVE AND OPEN MIND - Unable to create solutions to overcome challenges, unable to see the issues right in front of you to combat and change them, unable to find ways of creating successes in your program. Unable to recognize, accept or apply support and tips that can help you be successful in your journey.
NO SUPPORT - Isolation, no exposure to other people succeeding at what you are doing, no place to get a head check, no accountability, depression, failure.
The recipe for your LIFE LONG health and fitness is a carefully balanced recipe complete with proven methods, chemical reactions, science, and so much more.
Unless you are a person who is at goal weight and have kept it off for 5 years while missing one key ingredient above, DON'T YOU OWE IT TO YOURSELF to follow the proven recipe so you can HAVE and ENJOY your cake, and eat it too?
(LOL pun intended there too!)
Monday, May 24, 2010
Nailed it!
Gigantamundo tree fell from my neighbor's "yard". My neighbor is the National Park Service. It was half dead and there was a slight breeze this afternoon. It took out just ONE panel my fence. Being the one strong siren that I am, I went out to take the saw to some limbs and clean up an area so I could put an ex-pen in the now hole in the fence so the dogs could go outside.
As I went to saw a particular limb I looked down and said, "oh.. there's a nail right there - be sure not to step on that." Two minutes later I stepped backwards onto the rusty nail next to the one I saw. It penetrated in the nice fleshy part about half an inch under my "this little piggy had none" toe.
I was wearing my oh so not protective but oh so sexy Croc sandals. The nail went through those like a knife heated with lava going through room temperature I Can't Believe It's Not Butter. Hubby cleaned it out really well. Then few hours at the clinic. Tetanus shot.
As I went to saw a particular limb I looked down and said, "oh.. there's a nail right there - be sure not to step on that." Two minutes later I stepped backwards onto the rusty nail next to the one I saw. It penetrated in the nice fleshy part about half an inch under my "this little piggy had none" toe.
I was wearing my oh so not protective but oh so sexy Croc sandals. The nail went through those like a knife heated with lava going through room temperature I Can't Believe It's Not Butter. Hubby cleaned it out really well. Then few hours at the clinic. Tetanus shot.
Fear is a Very Powerful Depressant
I was watching a movie yesterday and heard the line:
Fear is a very powerful depressant.
On The Biggest Loser we see the contestants fears all the time. These fears keep them depressed, emotional and eating their way through life. Most often their biggest fears are part of their biggest breakthroughs.
What sort of things do you fear in your journey?
Fear of injury
Fear of major medical issue (heart attack, asthma attack)
Fear of losing control
Fear of taking control
Fear of change
Fear of being hungry
Fear of losing friends
Fear of being selfish
Fear of expectations
Fear of attention
Fear of relationship changes
Fear of affection
Fear of failure
Fear of the fat not being what is making you unhappy
Fear of success
Confronting your fears and moving past them is an important part of your journey.
IF YOU DEPEND ON FOOD as an emotional coping mechanism, you won't succeed at losing weight until you find ways to confront and resolve difficult emotions that DON'T INVOLVE FOOD, EATING OR OVEREATING.
The next time you discover a fear - confront it. Ask for help if you want or need to - or even if you don't think you need help. =) Don't bury it under countless empty calories. Eventually those calories are stored in your thighs and you still have the fear living underneath.
How do you take charge of your fears?
Research, Get Creative, and Trial and Error. =)
To start, I found this great overview article of areas of further exploration to take charge of your fears.
http://www.freedomfromfear.org/viewtopic.asp?topic_id=188
Cognitive Therapy for Weight Loss:
Education - You don't know what you don't know.
Self-Monitoring - You have to acknowledge it to fix it.
Problem Solving - You know best how to fix it, get creative and come up with solutions to your own issues. You do this in many other parts of your life (your job, your relationship, your parenting - you can do this for you too).
Accountability and support - Get tips, advice and support and have a place where you are checking in and being accountable.
Change in eating habits - Appreciate food for its taste AND how it fuels your body through each and every day.
Lorelei Added: Fitness - Creating a physically strong exterior has a massive impact on how strong you feel on the inside. There is a calm confidence you can have when your body is fit and you know you are a healthy person.
Responding to sabotaging thoughts - Your mind will always be more powerful than the muscles on your body. Learn to control and harness the power of your thoughts.
Experiments to decrease fear and increase tolerance of hunger and craving - create your own experiments to move through your fears. Empower yourself to solve your own issues once and for all.
Maintenance - As we have seen on last week's Biggest Loser, this is where you take everything that you have learned, and apply it along with new information that you will constantly bring into your arsenal of tricks to keep you on the right path for the rest of your life.
This is YOUR journey. It will only go as far as YOU take it. =)
Fear is a very powerful depressant.
On The Biggest Loser we see the contestants fears all the time. These fears keep them depressed, emotional and eating their way through life. Most often their biggest fears are part of their biggest breakthroughs.
What sort of things do you fear in your journey?
Fear of injury
Fear of major medical issue (heart attack, asthma attack)
Fear of losing control
Fear of taking control
Fear of change
Fear of being hungry
Fear of losing friends
Fear of being selfish
Fear of expectations
Fear of attention
Fear of relationship changes
Fear of affection
Fear of failure
Fear of the fat not being what is making you unhappy
Fear of success
Confronting your fears and moving past them is an important part of your journey.
IF YOU DEPEND ON FOOD as an emotional coping mechanism, you won't succeed at losing weight until you find ways to confront and resolve difficult emotions that DON'T INVOLVE FOOD, EATING OR OVEREATING.
The next time you discover a fear - confront it. Ask for help if you want or need to - or even if you don't think you need help. =) Don't bury it under countless empty calories. Eventually those calories are stored in your thighs and you still have the fear living underneath.
How do you take charge of your fears?
Research, Get Creative, and Trial and Error. =)
To start, I found this great overview article of areas of further exploration to take charge of your fears.
http://www.freedomfromfear.org/viewtopic.asp?topic_id=188
Cognitive Therapy for Weight Loss:
Education - You don't know what you don't know.
Self-Monitoring - You have to acknowledge it to fix it.
Problem Solving - You know best how to fix it, get creative and come up with solutions to your own issues. You do this in many other parts of your life (your job, your relationship, your parenting - you can do this for you too).
Accountability and support - Get tips, advice and support and have a place where you are checking in and being accountable.
Change in eating habits - Appreciate food for its taste AND how it fuels your body through each and every day.
Lorelei Added: Fitness - Creating a physically strong exterior has a massive impact on how strong you feel on the inside. There is a calm confidence you can have when your body is fit and you know you are a healthy person.
Responding to sabotaging thoughts - Your mind will always be more powerful than the muscles on your body. Learn to control and harness the power of your thoughts.
Experiments to decrease fear and increase tolerance of hunger and craving - create your own experiments to move through your fears. Empower yourself to solve your own issues once and for all.
Maintenance - As we have seen on last week's Biggest Loser, this is where you take everything that you have learned, and apply it along with new information that you will constantly bring into your arsenal of tricks to keep you on the right path for the rest of your life.
This is YOUR journey. It will only go as far as YOU take it. =)
Sunday, May 23, 2010
It's Never Too Late To Try...
Accountability Lesson...
I am in the blahs. Been here pretty much all week. I could speculate on all of the things that got me here - but really does it matter? Getting out should be my only focus.
Instead. Have a made any attempt to get out of it - not really, that is what the blahs do, un-motivate you, and I let them. Am I working out like I should or even like I want to be doing - nope. Do I know that if I work out I will feel better and less in the blahs? Yup. Do I know that creating opportunities for success for myself would make me feel A LOT better and really move me out of the blahs? Yup.
I have slacked on my fitness all week and now I am paying for it. I feel lazy. I feel tired. I feel.. BLAH.
I had intentions all day. At one point me and hubby ran some errands and stopped at Home Depot. He went in to get something. I considered taking some carts up to the door - just keep doing that at a quick pace to get some steps in (trying to do 12,000 steps a day now) - but I didn't. I just sat there and talked myself out of it then drove around the parking lot waiting for hubby. I have no excuses. I even thought about going down there now to get on the treadmill and the bike. Just stopping this post and starting to work out at almost 12:30am - just to do it. Just to get back into the routine!...
Then the voice kicks in as I type the above paragraph.. but then you have to wash your face, and brush your teeth, and get on your exercise clothes, and then get water in the water bottle.. it will easily be another 30 minutes before you are down there. Then what.. how long do you really plan on staying down there. It is late, you are tired. You should just go to bed and wait until tomorrow. Just do it tomorrow...
Then I remember the last time I felt like this and posted about how my "head" wasn't in it, how I was taking a break.. someone said something like .. "get up.. get dressed and go for a walk.. something.. anything.. this is the most critical time for you to do something about it to break the cycle.. one day turns into two, two days turns into weeks, weeks turn into months.. you don't want that to happen so change it now - get up, go out and take a walk.."
.....
20 minutes to brush and floss teeth, wash face, change and get down there.
I am down here - VICTORY!
The second the music started I knew I made the right decision.
VICTORY!
16 minutes of increasing my heart rate walking on the treadmill and stretching.
To self: Remember the other day when you posted how good you feel after stretching? Yeah.. you need to do this FIRST thing in the morning. Just commit to the 5 minutes for the warm up, then the 10 minutes of stretching. You feel SOOOO much better when you do. I bet that feeling lasts all day.
Then as a bit of a Jillian style make up for my behavior in the temptation challenge (LOL), and as a way to support the boot camp team I am participating in.. for the first time I took on one of the weekend challenges and did:
200 Torso Twists (right and left count as 1)
100 Side Bends (right and left count as 1)
and 50 Crunches
VICTORY
Now I am all warmed up. After some very brisk walking, I made myself jog 1/4 of a mile straight. THAT was a battle. I was gonna give up three dots before, two dots before.. omg am I gonna make it.. YAY!
VICTORY
So then I push on and blow by it and go four more dots at .2 mph faster.
VICTORY
I just did half of that the other day for the first time.
Then I biked keeping my heart rate up. A song or two later I was talking myself into cutting it short. It is late.. I should head to bed.. then those little notes started to play as song number 16 began on my play list of 19 songs...
I look into the window of my mind
Reflections of the fears I know I've left behind
I step out of the ordinary
I can feel my soul ascending
I am on my way
Can't stop me now
And you can do the same
What have you done today to make you feel proud?
IT'S NEVER TO LATE TO TRY (even at 1 AM! =)
What have you done today to make you feel proud?
You could be so many people
If you make that break for freedom
What have you done today to make you feel proud?
So I biked through the entire song, then I ran another 1/8 of a mile and back to the bike again through the last song on the CD.
VICTORY!
40 minutes of cardio!
VICTORY!!!
Cool down. WOOT!
I head upstairs and as I am standing in the kitchen eating a tablespoon of trail mix reflecting on how powerful the mind is that it can sabotage me day after day, have me believing the lies. I thought I wasn't going to listen to that voice. I thought I was ignoring those thoughts because all they do is cause failure.. I hear from the TV in the next room:
Yoda tells Luke to raise his cruiser out of the swamp. Luke, not believing he has the power of the force to take on such a huge task responds, "Ok, I'll try"
Yoda replies, "No. Try not. Do... or do not. There is no try."
Damn straight Yoda!
This, ladies and gentlemen concludes this evenings accountability exercise.
I am tired now.. =)
I am in the blahs. Been here pretty much all week. I could speculate on all of the things that got me here - but really does it matter? Getting out should be my only focus.
Instead. Have a made any attempt to get out of it - not really, that is what the blahs do, un-motivate you, and I let them. Am I working out like I should or even like I want to be doing - nope. Do I know that if I work out I will feel better and less in the blahs? Yup. Do I know that creating opportunities for success for myself would make me feel A LOT better and really move me out of the blahs? Yup.
I have slacked on my fitness all week and now I am paying for it. I feel lazy. I feel tired. I feel.. BLAH.
I had intentions all day. At one point me and hubby ran some errands and stopped at Home Depot. He went in to get something. I considered taking some carts up to the door - just keep doing that at a quick pace to get some steps in (trying to do 12,000 steps a day now) - but I didn't. I just sat there and talked myself out of it then drove around the parking lot waiting for hubby. I have no excuses. I even thought about going down there now to get on the treadmill and the bike. Just stopping this post and starting to work out at almost 12:30am - just to do it. Just to get back into the routine!...
Then the voice kicks in as I type the above paragraph.. but then you have to wash your face, and brush your teeth, and get on your exercise clothes, and then get water in the water bottle.. it will easily be another 30 minutes before you are down there. Then what.. how long do you really plan on staying down there. It is late, you are tired. You should just go to bed and wait until tomorrow. Just do it tomorrow...
Then I remember the last time I felt like this and posted about how my "head" wasn't in it, how I was taking a break.. someone said something like .. "get up.. get dressed and go for a walk.. something.. anything.. this is the most critical time for you to do something about it to break the cycle.. one day turns into two, two days turns into weeks, weeks turn into months.. you don't want that to happen so change it now - get up, go out and take a walk.."
.....
20 minutes to brush and floss teeth, wash face, change and get down there.
I am down here - VICTORY!
The second the music started I knew I made the right decision.
VICTORY!
16 minutes of increasing my heart rate walking on the treadmill and stretching.
To self: Remember the other day when you posted how good you feel after stretching? Yeah.. you need to do this FIRST thing in the morning. Just commit to the 5 minutes for the warm up, then the 10 minutes of stretching. You feel SOOOO much better when you do. I bet that feeling lasts all day.
Then as a bit of a Jillian style make up for my behavior in the temptation challenge (LOL), and as a way to support the boot camp team I am participating in.. for the first time I took on one of the weekend challenges and did:
200 Torso Twists (right and left count as 1)
100 Side Bends (right and left count as 1)
and 50 Crunches
VICTORY
Now I am all warmed up. After some very brisk walking, I made myself jog 1/4 of a mile straight. THAT was a battle. I was gonna give up three dots before, two dots before.. omg am I gonna make it.. YAY!
VICTORY
So then I push on and blow by it and go four more dots at .2 mph faster.
VICTORY
I just did half of that the other day for the first time.
Then I biked keeping my heart rate up. A song or two later I was talking myself into cutting it short. It is late.. I should head to bed.. then those little notes started to play as song number 16 began on my play list of 19 songs...
I look into the window of my mind
Reflections of the fears I know I've left behind
I step out of the ordinary
I can feel my soul ascending
I am on my way
Can't stop me now
And you can do the same
What have you done today to make you feel proud?
IT'S NEVER TO LATE TO TRY (even at 1 AM! =)
What have you done today to make you feel proud?
You could be so many people
If you make that break for freedom
What have you done today to make you feel proud?
So I biked through the entire song, then I ran another 1/8 of a mile and back to the bike again through the last song on the CD.
VICTORY!
40 minutes of cardio!
VICTORY!!!
Cool down. WOOT!
I head upstairs and as I am standing in the kitchen eating a tablespoon of trail mix reflecting on how powerful the mind is that it can sabotage me day after day, have me believing the lies. I thought I wasn't going to listen to that voice. I thought I was ignoring those thoughts because all they do is cause failure.. I hear from the TV in the next room:
Yoda tells Luke to raise his cruiser out of the swamp. Luke, not believing he has the power of the force to take on such a huge task responds, "Ok, I'll try"
Yoda replies, "No. Try not. Do... or do not. There is no try."
Damn straight Yoda!
This, ladies and gentlemen concludes this evenings accountability exercise.
I am tired now.. =)
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Out with the Old, Make Room for NEW!
After being inspired by Jillian's new show promo where she says to the woman as her entire driveway and front yard are covered in boxes of stuff, "You are drowning in all of this old stuff. We have to make room for NEW" today I will be heading into the motor home that has lived as a storage unit in my driveway for a few years now to start the process of cleaning it out so I can sell it and get it out of my driveway. =)
Inside is years of stuff.
I will be cleaning, organizing, taking photos and preparing to sell or donate all of my old hobby items that I have an amazing amount of stuff for, but haven't actually done in any noticeable capacity for years - sewing, knitting, crochet, cross stitch.
In the future that I am creating for myself there won't ever be time for me to sew my way through the 14 bins of material that I have had for years. In my future life I will be enjoying time with others, and taking care of myself.
This packed motorhome of craft items has a history.
Many years ago, 2005-2006 to be more exact, I bought a TON of random sewing material (all really nice stuff) for $7 at the home auction for Terry O'Quinn and his wife when they moved from Maryland to Hawaii after LOST won their Emmy's and were picked up for another season. It is FAMOUS material.. for $7! LOL
I then paid $280 for the bins that all of the material has been stored in to protect it from dust and the elements.
I then bought industrial sized Velcro rolls and hundreds of zippers off of eBay with the intention of making dog beds and belly bands for the dog boutique that I now haven't owned in years.
I then had to have batting for the beds that I was going to make, so I bought five boxes of batting, and quite a bit of foam sheets for some orthopedic type beds I had intended on making.
During this time I have used probably 2 yards of material, and I have even purchased more material with the intention of making things that never happened.
Plus, this is all living in the RV I want to sell, but can't until I get the stuff out of it.
It has to start somewhere right? =)
Are there areas of your life that are keeping you in the same habits and behavior that got you here?
Do you have old hobbies that no longer apply to the new life you are creating for yourself?
Are there places in your life that you could make room for NEW? =)
Inside is years of stuff.
I will be cleaning, organizing, taking photos and preparing to sell or donate all of my old hobby items that I have an amazing amount of stuff for, but haven't actually done in any noticeable capacity for years - sewing, knitting, crochet, cross stitch.
In the future that I am creating for myself there won't ever be time for me to sew my way through the 14 bins of material that I have had for years. In my future life I will be enjoying time with others, and taking care of myself.
This packed motorhome of craft items has a history.
Many years ago, 2005-2006 to be more exact, I bought a TON of random sewing material (all really nice stuff) for $7 at the home auction for Terry O'Quinn and his wife when they moved from Maryland to Hawaii after LOST won their Emmy's and were picked up for another season. It is FAMOUS material.. for $7! LOL
I then paid $280 for the bins that all of the material has been stored in to protect it from dust and the elements.
I then bought industrial sized Velcro rolls and hundreds of zippers off of eBay with the intention of making dog beds and belly bands for the dog boutique that I now haven't owned in years.
I then had to have batting for the beds that I was going to make, so I bought five boxes of batting, and quite a bit of foam sheets for some orthopedic type beds I had intended on making.
During this time I have used probably 2 yards of material, and I have even purchased more material with the intention of making things that never happened.
Plus, this is all living in the RV I want to sell, but can't until I get the stuff out of it.
It has to start somewhere right? =)
Are there areas of your life that are keeping you in the same habits and behavior that got you here?
Do you have old hobbies that no longer apply to the new life you are creating for yourself?
Are there places in your life that you could make room for NEW? =)
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Realize that to question is how we grow...
After feeling yucky for awhile, and posting about it, that was the catalyst that I decided I didn't want to feel that way anymore. I can rely on support from others, but ultimately I have to find the strength in me to move past this one moment and continue on the bigger picture journey. So I took active steps to shut down the thoughts in my mind and took steps to move on and be re-inspired.
I watched..
- Promo for Jillian's new show.. in 15 seconds just seeing her can turn my mood around and when she says to the woman, "What is holding you back?" and the woman replies, "Nothing now" and Jillian says "Damn right.."
Goosebumps every time. The determination in that woman's face is like a determined athlete fighting to get back what she now realizes was always with her all along - a healthy, fit, confident woman - she just needed someone to show her the way out. Yup.. tears just typing that. =)
- Betty White on Saturday Night Live and I was inspired by how at 88.5 that lady is as funny as ever and she keeps movin' on. She didn't let someone tell her she needed to retire at 65. Plus, thanks to.. THE INTERNET.. that is why she is hosting Saturday Night Live. Well thanks to THE INTERNET I have so many supportive people on my journey who can remind me of where my head really needs to be and teach me the things that they are learning along the way, and I can do the same for others.
- Avatar. This is now my third attempt to get through the movie - not because I don't like it, but because when you don't get enough sleep at night, that long of a movie is like 2 shots of Nyquil with a tequila chaser for me. =)
Last night I was amazed at the amount of references that fall in line with the things I am going through right now. The main male lead has to overcome a lot of challenges and has to dig deep into his moral core about how he really feels about himself, his journey, his choices. There are so many one liners that I would say to hubby, "Oohh..did you hear that? I just went through that mental struggle and what he just said is exactly how I got out of it too... creeeepy mooooovie.."
A lot of our journey is really in our heads...
Sooooo...
Today is a NEW day! I am re-inspired and for this week I am going to show my body and my mind some respect and give it consistency with my work outs just like I do my nutrition.
I listen to the Biggest Loser theme song in my workout routine. So the line that has been going through my head all morning from that song is..
Still so many answers I don't know
(There are so many answers)
REALIZE THAT TO QUESTION IS HOW WE GROW
(To question is to grow)
So I step out of the ordinary.
I can feel my soul ascending
I'm on my way
Can't stop me now
And you can do the same
(Yeah!)
I have to question myself along the way to make sure I am heading in the right direction by creating a lifestyle that can achieve and maintain my goals, plus I can live with it every day. =) It's how I grow. =)
Re-inspired!
I watched..
- Promo for Jillian's new show.. in 15 seconds just seeing her can turn my mood around and when she says to the woman, "What is holding you back?" and the woman replies, "Nothing now" and Jillian says "Damn right.."
Goosebumps every time. The determination in that woman's face is like a determined athlete fighting to get back what she now realizes was always with her all along - a healthy, fit, confident woman - she just needed someone to show her the way out. Yup.. tears just typing that. =)
- Betty White on Saturday Night Live and I was inspired by how at 88.5 that lady is as funny as ever and she keeps movin' on. She didn't let someone tell her she needed to retire at 65. Plus, thanks to.. THE INTERNET.. that is why she is hosting Saturday Night Live. Well thanks to THE INTERNET I have so many supportive people on my journey who can remind me of where my head really needs to be and teach me the things that they are learning along the way, and I can do the same for others.
- Avatar. This is now my third attempt to get through the movie - not because I don't like it, but because when you don't get enough sleep at night, that long of a movie is like 2 shots of Nyquil with a tequila chaser for me. =)
Last night I was amazed at the amount of references that fall in line with the things I am going through right now. The main male lead has to overcome a lot of challenges and has to dig deep into his moral core about how he really feels about himself, his journey, his choices. There are so many one liners that I would say to hubby, "Oohh..did you hear that? I just went through that mental struggle and what he just said is exactly how I got out of it too... creeeepy mooooovie.."
A lot of our journey is really in our heads...
Sooooo...
Today is a NEW day! I am re-inspired and for this week I am going to show my body and my mind some respect and give it consistency with my work outs just like I do my nutrition.
I listen to the Biggest Loser theme song in my workout routine. So the line that has been going through my head all morning from that song is..
Still so many answers I don't know
(There are so many answers)
REALIZE THAT TO QUESTION IS HOW WE GROW
(To question is to grow)
So I step out of the ordinary.
I can feel my soul ascending
I'm on my way
Can't stop me now
And you can do the same
(Yeah!)
I have to question myself along the way to make sure I am heading in the right direction by creating a lifestyle that can achieve and maintain my goals, plus I can live with it every day. =) It's how I grow. =)
Re-inspired!
It takes TIME to LOSE 10 pounds...
Someone who I trust, who has been right every time they have given me advice can predict my future and lay out all of the answers in front of me, but if my mind isn't open to consideration, I will never see it for myself.
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When I weighed in this morning the scale showed that I lost 1.6lbs this week. I posted to the boards about how it didn't matter what I got at the scale, I had accomplished a lot this week, I felt really good about pushing myself, etc.
Well after spending the afternoon feeling like crap, I did some reflection on my challenge and I wanted to share. =)+++
When I weighed in this morning the scale showed that I lost 1.6lbs this week. I posted to the boards about how it didn't matter what I got at the scale, I had accomplished a lot this week, I felt really good about pushing myself, etc.
Earlier this week someone very dear to me on this site took the time to write out a very carefully crafted message to let me know how unrealisitc my 10lb personal challenge was. I read it, and then replied with a very long post explaining my head space, the intention of me putting the challenge on myself, how I am pushing my fitness, my head is in the right place, and on and on..
I think that the long reply post should have been just one indicator that I was completely in denial. =)
She told me how unrealistic my goal was, how I was setting myself up for disappointment.
She was absolutely right.
I was wrong.
I should have never set the 10lb challenge for myself.
Absolutely everything she said is completely correct and even though I have told myself 1000 times today that the goal was unrealistic, those voices are in my head saying all of the same old things they used to about how I have failed, and what I could have done different or better. There has not been a single moment that I have been happy about the 1.6 lb loss. I did expect more, and I am disappointed.
Phew! I feel better already. Takes time to unlearn these old habits. =)
Posting this is part of what I am doing to move past this and learn from these very valuable lessons:
- don't ever set myself up for failure
- don't tie an area where I want to push myself (my fitness) to an area that relies on more than just my fitness (the scale)
- no matter what I think the moment when I read a message, have someone speak to me, or get a letter or note from someone who is trying to provide me with insight on how to help myself I need to allow myself time to think about what is being said and consider that this is a perception about myself that I will never be able to access or possess - how I am perceived by others and the life advice that they have to help make my life and journey easier. I promise to myself to be more open to that information and consider it carefuly as it is a viewpoint I will simply never possess but can learn VOLUMES about myself.
It is clear to me now about how this really is A PROCESS. Up until now I was looking at it purely from the mathematical point of view that Jillian talked about during Melissa's tantrums earlier this season:
physical fitness > calorie intake = weight loss
in that, I was simply wasn't factoring or considering all of the other things that I have seen/learned on the show.. other things can have significant impact on our success with weight loss in areas such as:
Nutrition
Timing of Nutrition
Food Combinations
Water Consumption
Fitness
Fitness intensity
Fitness time of day
Rest
Repair
Bloating
How we manage emotional stress
and many others
So given that the PROCESS contains many factors, and IT TAKES TIME TO LOSE TEN POUNDS - not just because I set the time frame. It was completely unreasonable that I set a 10lb personal challenge to myself - that was never a fair goal.
There is a careful balance that I am going to work on to find the sweet spot between pushing myself to stick to the program to the point that I push too far, and not pushing enough. That is gonna take some practice! =)
PHEW!
Feeling much better, but I am sure it will be a battle to keep the voices in check.. they had a little victory there for a few days while I was in denial and they get really cocky after that. =)
Friday, May 14, 2010
Self-Imposed 10lb Challenge
So this week I did a self-imposed 10lb Challenge.
I have worked very hard this week towards that goal:
575 Minutes aka 9.58 Hours of exercise.
I took 81,532 steps on the pedometer (considering I work at home with no commute that is a big accomplishment - last week I had 64,289)
I went to my county pool for the first time and got a pass to go 12 more times to any facility in the county.
So today I also got a manicure, pedicure and massage as a reward for pushing it this week and to take care of my body while it is going through all of these transitions. =)
Regardless of the outcome on the scale tomorrow, I:
- pushed myself to a whole new level in my workouts
- pushed myself to a whole new level in my workouts
- have a new level of confidence in my abilities physically
- loved having a short term goal and pushing towards that with what I thought it reasonably and realistically took to try to take 10lbs off in a healthy way in a week. =)
- feel like an athlete - training for something very important - and I plan on carrying that with me from here forward - it sure does help with the workouts. =)
I am proud that I gained more out of challenging myself than just the outcome on the scale. It definitely has boosted my confidence in my journey. =)
So we shall see what the scale says tomorrow. =)
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
WEEK 6: Mind Over Matter
2lb Loss Last Week - WOOT! 25lbs total loss in 5 weeks. =)
I have made a public challenge on the message boards that I will lose 10lbs this week - double digits. I don't know if I will make it there, but I am going to make every effort to do it, plus I am sure I will fare better than the 2-3lbs loss that I have seen the last two weeks. I told hubby that I needed to have sex every day this week to add to the cardio. He said he would be happy to be my workout partner. =)
I have made a public challenge on the message boards that I will lose 10lbs this week - double digits. I don't know if I will make it there, but I am going to make every effort to do it, plus I am sure I will fare better than the 2-3lbs loss that I have seen the last two weeks. I told hubby that I needed to have sex every day this week to add to the cardio. He said he would be happy to be my workout partner. =)
In the Boot Camp group I ranked for points this week in our group. I think that a lot of people have been there a long time, are in a rut and just not seeing the success or progress they had anticipated and so they get down on themselves day after day living in the same behavior that kept us all fat for years before this. I am going to try some things to see if I can help turn morale around for a few people in there and increase our performance and numbers over the next week. I have to remember I came in during the middle of the boot camp - this group has been together a month before I got there, and sometimes newbie advice is not looked upon favorably. =)
I did some dog/house sitting for a friend this weekend. There were temptations ALL over their house. Things that I used to make it a point to binge on - bite sized brownies, bite sized candies, ice cream sandwiches.. oh yeah. So when I got there, I looked through all of the food options, and while assessing what they had I told myself that all of their food was covered in poison and mold. Visualizing mold or poison on food proved to be pretty powerful for me. I didn't partake on any of those items (although I considered it a few times) - and I brought my own food and stayed completely on plan. Yay me!
Some posts I have made to the boards:
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Admitting you WANT something has 0 Calories.
CHOOSING not to have that item right now because it is in conflict of your goals has 100% of your Daily Recommended Personal Empowerment.
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moth·er
–noun
a female parent.
a mother-in-law, stepmother, or adoptive mother.
a term of address for a female parent or a woman having or regarded as having the status, function, or authority of a female parent.
a term of familiar address for an old or elderly woman.
a woman exercising control, influence, or authority like that of a mother: to be a mother to someone.
the qualities characteristic of a mother, as maternal affection: It is the mother in her showing itself.
something or someone that gives rise to or exercises protecting care over something else; origin or source.
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–noun
a female parent.
a mother-in-law, stepmother, or adoptive mother.
a term of address for a female parent or a woman having or regarded as having the status, function, or authority of a female parent.
a term of familiar address for an old or elderly woman.
a woman exercising control, influence, or authority like that of a mother: to be a mother to someone.
the qualities characteristic of a mother, as maternal affection: It is the mother in her showing itself.
something or someone that gives rise to or exercises protecting care over something else; origin or source.
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On this day I wish all of the MOTHERS out there a Happy Mother's Day.
I also wish all of the people who may not be biological, but who MOTHER OTHER PEOPLE a Happy Mother's Day.
I WISH UPON EACH OF YOU that you take a moment each day to be a better MOTHER TO YOURSELF. If we were more caring, concerned, loving, affectionate, protective, supportive and encouraging of ourselves it WILL make each one of our journey's easier. =)
Hugs to each and every one of you. =)
Lorelei
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Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Time to be REAL with yourself.
I am participating in two challenges this month on The Biggest Loser site.
On one team we have Deb.. or Jr. Jillian as we call her. She is the one who sees through your lame excuses and calls you out on them. She notices when you have missed your Cardio or Strength training for a few days. She smacks you upside the head if needed. She is an inspiration. She will hit her goal June 1 and we won't have her awesome presence anymore so I consider myself very lucky to have had her as part of my first two months of my journey.
On the other team.. we don't have a Deb or a Jillian yet that I can see. People post about eating brownies, candy bars, how they will do better tomorrow, work out tomorrow, etc. It is almost depressing compared to the other group. So I thought I would take a stab at trying to be Deb. This is what I posted to the second group. I hope it helps someone =)
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I know I am new here and don't have "street cred" with most of you yet, but I keep reading posts on the boards that I follow where some are deliberately sabotaging themselves day after day with poor food choices, not planning their workouts, not taking care of themselves and dishing out the same excuses that we have been using for years to keep us fat. I really hurt for these people - I have been there. It is crippling.
I have been there, and I wish when I was in that moment someone like a Jillian would have come along and shaken some sense into me instead of walking on eggshells around me, making me feel OK about my failures while I was shoving the most horrible foods into my mouth and living a sedentary lifestyle doing nothing to save my life.
I have found that kind of support here. When I have been weak I have support here that pulls me through the tough times. I am 5 weeks in and I feel fantastic. I have not cheated at all. I push myself EVERY workout. I have so many successes in those 5 weeks I don't even think that I can remember all of them. However, in my weak moments I got the wake up call from people within my support circle that have helped me through the tough times without failure. Physically, mentally and emotionally I am forever a different person and the person that started this journey 5 weeks ago is a stranger to me now.
So I spent yesterday and today trying to find a way to communicate what I have done aside from simply turning off my brain and following the plan to maybe help it "click" in another person's mind and inspire them in the way that I have been inspired by some people on this site to do the things I have done to be successful.
Take a moment. Close your eyes. Take some deep breaths, open your mind to change your thinking, and love yourself enough to honestly consider if you are doing each of these to help you be successful.
Get ready.. this is full of CAPS. =)
Time to be REAL with yourself:
If you are eating foods that you KNOW are not on the plan AND / OR you aren't doing AT LEAST the physical activity recommended by the plan - you are DELIBERATELY SABOTAGING yourself AND you are LYING to yourself about the scientific and mathematical proof of: physical output > caloric intake = RESULTS. LOVE AND RESPECT YOURSELF more than that. Ask yourself, would you sabotage your best friend, your spouse, a family member if they were on a restricted eating plan trying to save their lives? You came here to make a change - at least GIVE YOURSELF A FAIR CHANCE to achieve your goals.
Recognize that FEELINGS and EMOTIONS are NOT ALIVE and do not need to be FED - Food is ONLY FUEL - not comfort. If you need comfort ask someone for a HUG. Several if you need it. ASK for SUPPORT. TALK to a friend. RELY on the support you have here. Cookies and cake don't make the bad feelings go away. SUCCESSES DO. Your feelings and emotions are like a critically injured patient in the ICU. They have been so beaten and battered, they cannot be relied upon to save you - you have to ignore them and follow the plan to save them from their devastated and crippled state.
Following the plan GUARANTEES you some successes and victories in your life and the opportunity for the PROOF that those feelings were wrong! You CAN do this. You DO DESERVE this. DO IT!
Feelings and Emotions ultimately can't be put on the shelf, so they do have to be managed. Only YOU have 100% control of all of your feelings and emotions. NO ONE has the power to MAKE YOU FEEL anything unless you let them. All of your feelings are a CHOICE. If you feel SAD, it is your responsibility to yourself to take action to immediately turn that around, and you can do it in as little as a few minutes with practice and a positive and strong internal dialogue. Self-fulfilling prophecies DO COME TRUE. If you think you can't / you won't - you can't and you won't. If you think I can / I will - YOU CAN AND YOU WILL!
BE PATIENT - Each minute is another challenge, I won't lie to you. However, getting through that minute without sabotaging yourself is a victory. The more successful minutes you have in your past the more successful minutes your future will hold. Past behavior is the most indicative of future behavior. Create a new past for yourself RIGHT NOW and secure the success in your future!
I am here to be part of the help and support for anyone who wants it. It helps me be more successful on my journey. =)
L O V E Y O U R S E L F !
Lorelei
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
My Life Needs To Lose Weight
Jillian Michaels, the trainer from The Biggest Loser show has a new show coming up in June in NBC called "Losing It with Jillian Michaels". From the previews it looks as though I will probably cry though all of the episodes, but one shot in the promo really got me thinking.
So in that clip we see where they have practically this woman's entire house out on her front lawn. At first I thought, what does that have to do with losing weight. However, now a few weeks in .. I get it.
How much excess weight do I still have in my life?
I definitely have things in my life that I have held on to for what I am now seeing to be all of the wrong reasons. In just the last month I have used my new found desire for a healthy and lean lifestyle, and my need to find ways to get in hours of cardio without being a slave to the treadmill every day to start cleaning out my life as well as my head. =) However, I still have a ways to go.
I have an entire motor home in my drive way as a storage unit. Even the motor home itself was an impulsive purchase without much forethought about "down the road" needs. =) In there I have lots of stuff, boxes, storage bins, etc. Late last year I went in there and reorganized everything. Took photos of the stuff I was going to freecycle, sell, etc. Never did another thing with it. Right inside the door is the really the biggest challenge for me of all of the stuff in there.
The one that has been the hardest for me is my sewing, knitting, crochet stuff. These were all skills that my grandmother taught me and although I rarely do them, I have held on to all of this stuff. About 5 years ago I accumulated A LOT more sewing and craft stuff which is now blocking the entrance of the motor home. Here is how it started:
5 years ago I went to an estate sale. It was for Terry O'Quinn from LOST and his wife's home. They were moving from the farmland that her parents had owned in Maryland and where they had met - he was the farm hand, she was the farmer's daughter - at first her Dad was none too pleased, but eventually came around. They were leaving the lovely rolling hills of Maryland to move to Hawaii as LOST was picked up for the second season. As we moved room through room of their beautiful home there wasn't anything that really struck my eye that I had to have. She had stunning items, and there was furniture that he had made, it was a splendid walk through the lives of some very creative people. When we went up to her craft room and I was breathless (and not just from the stairs! =). She had the top floor with half of the length of their house as her amazing craft room. Counter space lined both long walls with drawers and cubbies above and below to store everything. She did glasswork, sewing, costume making, you name it. It was here I eyed 7 huge Rubbermaid bins of various material - nice material. I bought it all for $7.
What a bargain right?! There were yards and yards of perfect material for dog beds, dog clothes, belly bands - things that I could make in my free time and sell in the dog boutique where I was the co-owner and was running the store most days of the week.
After that purchase I:
- bought 14 huge bins from the Container Store at $20 a piece to store said material, and organize all of the other sewing stuff that I had already collected all of these years. I even have a cross stitch that I started when I was in JUNIOR HIGH, that is half done and in those bins. Considering I came to MD/VA in 1991 with two suitcases and a carry on - how I even have this cross stitch is beyond me.
- bought 5 boxes of batting, with the intention that I was going to make dog beds for the dog store that I had at the time
- bought enough foam and batting foam to make easily 14 dog beds
- bought Velcro in HUGE industrial size rolls (in white, beige and black) on EBay to make Belly Bands for Dogs that I planned on selling in the store
- bought more material each trip to the fabric store that was on sale and I couldn't pass it up
That $7 in material turned into the catalyst for hundreds of dollars of more purchases, and in 5 years I have made 3 beds that I didn't like the way they turned out so I stopped, and about 30 belly bands. That's it. The 14 bins have been moved about 7 times in those years to different storage areas in the house and now they are currently residing in the motor home in my driveway.
All of these years I just couldn't let that stuff go. Some day I will make the dog beds. I will sell stuff on ebay and make a little side income and recoup some of the financial loss on this stuff. Some day I will find the need for thousands of yards of velcro. Some day right?
In my new head space, now when I think about what I want my future life to be like - it definitely does not include a ton of sewing. So, I am going to go into that motor home and start cleaning it out getting it ready to sell and purging the things in there that I haven't even looked at.. some in 5 years, some in over a decade. My new healthy life doesn't have time to sew.. and if it does, it will go to the fabric store, buy exactly what I need, make it and be done.
GOAL: I give myself three months to clean out and SELL that motor home. By August 4, 2010 it is my intention to have purged out that RV and sold it freeing up my driveway for the first time in over 5 years. =)
This is my new attitude. This is my new life. =)
So in that clip we see where they have practically this woman's entire house out on her front lawn. At first I thought, what does that have to do with losing weight. However, now a few weeks in .. I get it.
How much excess weight do I still have in my life?
I definitely have things in my life that I have held on to for what I am now seeing to be all of the wrong reasons. In just the last month I have used my new found desire for a healthy and lean lifestyle, and my need to find ways to get in hours of cardio without being a slave to the treadmill every day to start cleaning out my life as well as my head. =) However, I still have a ways to go.
I have an entire motor home in my drive way as a storage unit. Even the motor home itself was an impulsive purchase without much forethought about "down the road" needs. =) In there I have lots of stuff, boxes, storage bins, etc. Late last year I went in there and reorganized everything. Took photos of the stuff I was going to freecycle, sell, etc. Never did another thing with it. Right inside the door is the really the biggest challenge for me of all of the stuff in there.
The one that has been the hardest for me is my sewing, knitting, crochet stuff. These were all skills that my grandmother taught me and although I rarely do them, I have held on to all of this stuff. About 5 years ago I accumulated A LOT more sewing and craft stuff which is now blocking the entrance of the motor home. Here is how it started:
5 years ago I went to an estate sale. It was for Terry O'Quinn from LOST and his wife's home. They were moving from the farmland that her parents had owned in Maryland and where they had met - he was the farm hand, she was the farmer's daughter - at first her Dad was none too pleased, but eventually came around. They were leaving the lovely rolling hills of Maryland to move to Hawaii as LOST was picked up for the second season. As we moved room through room of their beautiful home there wasn't anything that really struck my eye that I had to have. She had stunning items, and there was furniture that he had made, it was a splendid walk through the lives of some very creative people. When we went up to her craft room and I was breathless (and not just from the stairs! =). She had the top floor with half of the length of their house as her amazing craft room. Counter space lined both long walls with drawers and cubbies above and below to store everything. She did glasswork, sewing, costume making, you name it. It was here I eyed 7 huge Rubbermaid bins of various material - nice material. I bought it all for $7.
What a bargain right?! There were yards and yards of perfect material for dog beds, dog clothes, belly bands - things that I could make in my free time and sell in the dog boutique where I was the co-owner and was running the store most days of the week.
After that purchase I:
- bought 14 huge bins from the Container Store at $20 a piece to store said material, and organize all of the other sewing stuff that I had already collected all of these years. I even have a cross stitch that I started when I was in JUNIOR HIGH, that is half done and in those bins. Considering I came to MD/VA in 1991 with two suitcases and a carry on - how I even have this cross stitch is beyond me.
- bought 5 boxes of batting, with the intention that I was going to make dog beds for the dog store that I had at the time
- bought enough foam and batting foam to make easily 14 dog beds
- bought Velcro in HUGE industrial size rolls (in white, beige and black) on EBay to make Belly Bands for Dogs that I planned on selling in the store
- bought more material each trip to the fabric store that was on sale and I couldn't pass it up
That $7 in material turned into the catalyst for hundreds of dollars of more purchases, and in 5 years I have made 3 beds that I didn't like the way they turned out so I stopped, and about 30 belly bands. That's it. The 14 bins have been moved about 7 times in those years to different storage areas in the house and now they are currently residing in the motor home in my driveway.
In my new head space, now when I think about what I want my future life to be like - it definitely does not include a ton of sewing. So, I am going to go into that motor home and start cleaning it out getting it ready to sell and purging the things in there that I haven't even looked at.. some in 5 years, some in over a decade. My new healthy life doesn't have time to sew.. and if it does, it will go to the fabric store, buy exactly what I need, make it and be done.
GOAL: I give myself three months to clean out and SELL that motor home. By August 4, 2010 it is my intention to have purged out that RV and sold it freeing up my driveway for the first time in over 5 years. =)
This is my new attitude. This is my new life. =)
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